20 Days Out

Well today will be one of the "easier" days, haha like there are any while dieting, because I didn't get up until noon so I have to work all my macros into a much smaller amount of time. Am I complaining? Heck no! I'm also not complaining about having a rest day today. It's been a week and much over due. My sore hamstring and sore foot will enjoy it :o) I managed to pull my left hamstring last week during lower body training and it's been aching ever since. My back is also aching today, probably because I've been sitting or lying around ever since yesterday afternoon. And that's what I'll be doing more of today since I have to write my last Econ paper--thank you baby Jesus! I still cannot believe I'll officially graduate in 3 weeks to the day. Yikes! That means....something much scarier than trying to tackle this dieting plan for 3 weeks....it means getting a real job! Hmm maybe I should flunk accounting II again haha Kidding...although the idea isn't a bad one ;o)

Okay, time to stop screwing around and get this paper done. Here's a wrap up of the day and meals:

CARDIO: OFF
TRAINING: OFF
MEALS: 20-135-90/WEEK 1

M1: Hungry Girl's Oatmeal Raisin Softy (amazing, will post recipe later), TJ's English muffin/pb, EW/ff shredded cheese, coffee/almond milk/stevia
M2: Trader Joe's bag of shrimp stir fry
M3: long grain brown rice, TJ's chili lime chix strips, zucchini squash, hoisin sauce
M4: (Rae's Protein Waffles) oats, BSN Syntha-6, vanilla, baking powder, Walden Farms pancake syrup

Oxygen's 21 days/3 Weeks Plan

Starting today (4/26/09) I'm doing a 3 week/21 day plan to drop (roughly) 10 pounds which was featured in Oxygen's Spring 2009 issue. I got through two weeks of it in March and went from 133 to 126.5lbs but then fell off the wagon hard core for about 3 weeks and feel like I'm back at square one. During those three to four weeks I kept trying to get back on the wagon but my heart wasn't in it. I had no drive or desire to tackle a pretty fierce dieting down plan again.

I've used this past week to slowly get my act back together and starting today I'm tackling it again and I'm determined to hold out for the whole three weeks. I do have a goal in site this time which will be my graduation from Mizzou on May 17th!!! Finally! And my birthday is May 19th.

The three weeks are very tight when it comes to macros and numbers and allow no room for slip ups. I feel I have more support than ever from my fiance and friends right now which does help out. The only downfall is kicking this sugar habit I've formed over the past 3-4 weeks and my constant foot injury.

I'm beginning to think it's not Planter Fasciitis anymore and it's something else being over looked. I know PF is very come in people who do Tae Bo and one Tae Bo instructor I know was misdiagnosed with having PF when it was something more serious. So going back to see my podiatrist maybe be in the works or I may try to find a foot specialist....do they make those? lol

Time for bed and time to say adios to processed crapola for the next three weeks. I've come to realize what some of my downfalls are (any type of meal replacement bars, tiny bites of a cookie or even one piece of chocolate, and getting hungry because I stay up late reading then attempt to add whatever extra I've eaten into the next day's macros). Now to nix all those things and clean it up for 21 days! Let's go!

I know it's been quite some time since I've posted. I kinda fell off the posting wagon and totally forgot about my blog. Some good news though: I'm down 6.5 lbs and I'm sitting at 127 right now. I'm not sure what "number" I want to be at, I'm just more concerned with having a healthy body fat percent, eating healthy most of the time, and living a healthy lifestyle.

Shockingly enough, I've maintained my weight despite having multiple "off" days filled with pizza, cinnamon sticks from Domino's, Krispy Kreme, wine, and this amazing little thing from Applebee's called a Dessert Shooter. PS, the strawberry cheesecake one is to die for! I've found it quite ironic that despite not gaining any "weight" during these past two weeks and being able to eat crap, I feel like crap. Jeff and I were trying to decide what to get for dinner last night and he left the choice up to me. I thought about getting pizza but it just didn't appeal to me. I'm kinda sick of it. I know, crazy right?! Although that didn't stop me from having a piece of pecan pie for breakfast this morning lol It was the last piece left and I thought, to hell with it, and ate it. Wow was it good!

I thought about allowing myself to intuitively eat the rest of the day and have something like a sandwich made with deli turkey meat and processed white bread for lunch, but it just sounds kinda icky. Plus I know how it'll make my tummy feel. Of course that feeling can't be any worse than it was last night after I ate like 7 pieces of sugar free candy. OMG. I literally thought my intestines were going to explode. It hurt so bad! I knew it would bother me from the get go, but I didn't think that much! You couldn't get me to touch that stuff with a 10 foot pole now.

I haven't decided how I'm going to eat the rest of the day, probably pretty clean but nothing too anal. My tummy is still kinda upset from the sugar alcohols last night so I'm sticking with bland foods today.

Time to get out of bed (been laying in bed reading all morning and afternoon), showered, and ready to go run some errands.

It's been quite some time since I posted and I totally forgot about my blog for awhile...funny, since I have so much free time that is spent sitting online (aka Facebook). For an update:

Got my spinal injections last Monday. Was quite sore that day because she stuck me four times with the needles instead of twice. Normally she has me lay on my stomach on the operating table and puts this thing that looks like a HUGE crocheting needle on my spine. It's some type of x-ray camera and when she lays it on my back I can look up at the monitor in front of me and see my spine! It's like a live x-ray--very cool! Next she cleans my back off with alcohol and then she takes a permanent marker and dots where she wants to insert the numbing needle on the right side of my spine (around the L5 area). Then she sticks me with the numbing needle. It honestly doesn't hurt and feels the same as if you were to take a safety pin and just poke your arm. She leaves that needle in there and then injections the numbing medicine. I don't know if it's a syringe with the needle attached or how she shoot it in there. But after that goes in she injects the actual medicine. The only part I can really feel is the numbing medicine go in because it feels like it's hitting a bone and the feeling of the bone being hit is like when you hit your funny bone. Kinda funky. Then she repeats the whole procedure on the left side of my L5.

Now usually this is how it goes. But this past time she was putting it in a new area of my back (to see if it would work better than previous injection sites) and the numbing needle ended up in a very tight muscle both times she did it on each side. I could still feel it even after she numbed it so she had to remove it and start all over again. So needless to say, I was a tad bit sorer this time and I still have the bruises.

So Monday was spent lying down all day, sleeping, and icing my back on and off every hour. The steroid pack gave me awful headaches and made me very tired. Tuesday consisted of driving 30 min. to and from the dentist (which was not helpful on my healing back) and more resting/sleeping. Wednesday I had to go to two classes but luckily after I finished my Accounting II exam in my evening class I got to go home. The teacher was still going to teach a lesson after the exam but I couldn't sit there any longer than the 60 minutes it took to take the exam. Thursday I was feeling better and getting very antsy from not working out since Sunday so I hoped on the treadmill for 50 minutes. I cranked it up to the highest incline and walked at a pretty decent pace for 50 minutes. Friday I rested and drove out to my dad's office to catch up on some computer work that I do there. I was able to sit for roughly 3 hours and was just about pain free! Saturday I had a massage schedule and it really helped with loosing me up and she worked specifically on my glutes to help the siatica pain.

Sunday ended my rest week and I got in a good Tae Bo session. Today was another Tae Bo workout. So far the past two days I've been about 90% better than before the injections. I was a little sore today while lying in bed this evening but nothing like the normal pain I was having. Tomorrow will really be a test because I'm working at the office for 4 hours which consists of mostly sitting.

Now for a "diet" update: I knew I was going to do Lent this year and was going to vow to "give up" all those little nibbles I have during the day that sometimes turn into bigger nibbles. So last Monday and Tuesday was kinda rough since I knew come Wednesday I'd be saying "buh bye" to those foods. I do feel I have much more control over what I am eating and resisting my cravings now that I'm focusing that energy on religion. I don't know if that really makes sense...what my goal is for Lent is to channel my cravings and temptations into time spent with Jesus. When I get those temptations and think about how hard it is to give those things up, I realize what Jesus gave up for me and how tempted He must have been to run and not be crucified. I am also getting daily email devotionals which help me focus on a certain topic for each day.

Now I'm going to make myself look like a hypocrit and tell you about today....I've been dealing with some serious GI issues the past three weeks. Every afternoon I've been blowing up like a balloon and look 5 months preggers and I cannot figure out why. I feel very heavy and full yet I don't have to go to the bathroom (sorry if TMI but I'm trying to figure this out). Today was by far one of the worst days. My gut feels hard and sometimes hurts. I haven't changed anything in my diet to cause this. And the fact that this has been going on for three weeks helps me rule out PMS. So today after I ate my pre-training meal and the bloat got really bad, I felt so awful that I decided to just spend the rest of the afternoon laying in bed watching TV. It hasn't gotten any better and still kinda hurts. I know it's not constipation because I'm going my normal amount.

I went through something like this where I wasn't going at all for days on end in 2004 but after I went through tests and saw an IBS specialist, we concluded that the IBS-like symptoms I was having were from a vasospasim medicine I was on! It mocked IBS symptoms! How crazy is that!? I'm not on any meds now besides my normal acetomenophen with codeine which I've been taking for 2 years. So I'm at a loss of what is going on right now but it's very uncomfortable and it restricts me from wearing anything form fitting.

So that's a wrap up of what's been going on. I'll try my best to update more often :o)

It Keeps On Getting Better!

Last night I had a stress breakdown. It was 7:30pm, an hour after I ate my fifth meal, I had a headache, I was hungry, I had an econ paper to research and write, and I just realized that I did not have enough time on Tuesday to do office work with Mom, get my hair done at 1pm, write and research the paper, and be done with all of this by 5:30pm when Jeff would come over. I was flipping out and was ready to clean out the pantry of freshly baked (and still warm!) Toll House Valentine's Day cookies Mom just made and eat the whole bag of baked Doritos.

I decided to eat an Amy's Tofu Scramble pocket to curb the hunger pains and help with the carb craving. Unfortunately, it didn't do the trick and I was still stressing out. I had two Toll House cookies and a Fiber One bar. I figured the Fiber One bar was sweet, carby, and still semi-healthy. I was ready to dive into my third cookie when I stopped in my tracks and asked myself, "Will you feel any better after you swallow that last bite of cookie? Will this third cookie or any other food make the stress go away?" Nope! I'll just be more stressed out and unhappy if I continue with eating my stress away.

Luckily by this time it was 9pm and I was heading to bed soon so I figured out what damage I had done and was shocked to find I only sucked down 1700 calories for the day. My carbs were much higher than the low carb number I was shooting for, but I didn't do that much damage. I then proceeded to figure out what Saturday would look like with going to Bread Co. I plugged in all my meals for the day, including Bread Co., and was happy to find that I'd be sitting around 1530 calories. Amazing! I could eat at Bread Co. and do less damage than I did eating two cookies, a Fiber One bar, and the tofu scramble! haha So then I figured out that even with my stress out fix on Monday plus Saturday's extra amount and if I stick to my lower carb plans for the rest of the week (like planned), I'll be averaging a very nice caloric amount for the whole week! Still in BF loss mode! Yay!

And speaking of BF loss...down another pound today! I'm not exactly on track with where I'd like to be in the 12 week plan, but I'm heading in the right direction and I have to work with where I am, not where I think I should be. If I sit here and worry about, "Omg, I should be at XXX weight this week and I'm not!", I'm just going to self sabotage myself and create a freaking out, may as well give up mindset. And I have done that far too many times before and I'm going to step out and prevent myself from doing it again.

And more good news, went to the spinal doc yesterday. I told her about my Siatica bothering me and she asked if I felt any numbness or tingling in my legs or feet. I said no (thank you baby Jesus!) and she was relieved to hear that. She said my options were: live with the pain (we both said no thank you to this!), take anti-inflamatories (which I've done and don't do a thing), go back to physical therapy (which has helped but not as much as the injections), or do another round of injections in a different spot. I opted for the injections again. I have an apt. set up for Feb. 23rd at 9:20am to get them.

Only problem is, I have an Econ exam that afternoon and per her orders, I cannot sit more than 30 minutes that day (plus I'm in too much pain from them to sit that long) and I have to ice it 15 min. on and 15 min. off the whole day. I have to talk to my Econ professor tomorrow to see if he'll let me take the exam prior to or after the scheduled date. He's a very nice guy so I'm thinking that he'll let me do that. Otherwise I can either (a) make sure I get done in 30 minutes (I usually cannot focus on any exam more than this amount of time anyways lol), walk around after 30 minutes, press through the 30 minutes of sitting, or reschedule my injection apt.

Rescheduling is going to be a pain if I have to resort to that because it's hard to get an injection apt. with my doc. She only does it certain days of the week at certain times and at the certain location I want to see her at. Plus, I have to have Mom go with me because I am not allowed to drive home. Why I can't, idk. I'm a little sore immediately after but worse as the day goes on.

I could also press through the 30 min. of sitting because last time I got the injections, Jeff and I had to drive back to Columbia, MO that same day. That's a 2 1/2 hour drive. We always stopped at a gas station (because I pee like every hour with the amount of water I consume lol) after an hour so I sat a full 60 minutes twice that day and I lived :o) But I'm still going to ask my prof. if I can take it a different day just so I don't have to worry about all that sitting.

Plans for today:
CARDIO: Tae Bo Core Express with the Amped bar--done!
TRAINING: OFF
MEALS: low carbing it

HOLY Carbs Batman!!!

I knew the carb/calorie amount was vvv high in the sourdough soup bread bowl from Panera Bread, but I forgot they were this high!!!! I used to eat those with the chix noodle soup every day like 7 years ago. I had no idea about proper nurition and nutrition information then. So I haven't had one of these in about 6 years and Jeff and I thought, what a good place to go for Valentine's Day dinner! It won't be crowded, we won't have to dress up (thank goodness he thinks I still look hot--his words, not mine--in jeans and a white t-shirt), and it won't be expensive. I was going to cook something for us but how romantic is it to sit and eat at home with the whole family here?! Well, not like Bread Co. is that much more romantic but at least it'll be more quiet than my house haha

Okay, so here are the facts on that God awful, but SO good, bread bowl:

590 Calories
2.5g Fat (just lovely if you're going for the "fat free" diet haha)
117g Carbs
4g Fiber
22g Protein (in bread! who knew?!)

Now for the chix noodle soup:

100 Calories
2g Fat
16g Carbs
1g Fiber
6g Protein

Now how many poor people are out there sucking these down left and right like I was, when they have no idea they're eating so many calories and carbs!? At least there is a good amount of protein in it, I'll give Bread Co. that. But it's going to be my Valentine's Day/Carb Up/Treat Meal of the week so I'm going to enjoy the heck outta it! Now to stay on, on, on my macros the rest of this week :o) I can do it, no fear!

Another early Monday, but today I get to skip school...to go to the back doctor's. I don't know if that will be worth it. I'm kinda worried about what she's going to tell me. Either more injections (in a different spot) or who knows what? She said originally she never saw anything that needed surgery so that makes me hopeful that she won't suggest it now. The only issue with injections is that they make me hurt so bad afterward for a day or two. That and last time she put me on the steroid pack right after so I didn't hurt as bad after the injections (which did help I think), but they made me so sick to my stomach that just looking at food made me want to vomit. They also made me very tired/lethargic and uber bitchy! Talk about an extra week of PMS throughout the month! haha So we'll see what she says at 1:15pm.

Eats were GREAT yesterday. I started rotating carbs yesterday and I'll do 5 days of lower carbs then carb up two days a week (one of which will be Valentine's Day--which will be higher than the carb amount I'm aiming for but it's V-Day!). My fear was that I was going to be hungry and want more carbs yesterday but I was very content with all my meals and only got hungry after breakfast, before church. I think I'm going to start eating oatmeal with pp for breakfast on Sunday's because egg whites with a Thomas Light English muffin just is not sticking with me for 3-4 hours. By the time I eat, shower, get ready, go to church, and get home, it's been 4 hours. So next week we'll try oatmeal.

Today's eats are all planned and carbs are right where they should be. I need to get my protein levels up some because my calories are a tad too low. Today's plan is just cardio but I had to switch up this week with next week. I was going to do the whole Boot Camp Elite series this week but since both sets of my Tae Bo bands broke last week I have to do the Amped series this week with the Amped bar. I ordered a new set of bands last week on Friday so hopefully they'll be here by this Friday! I'm so sad that they don't make the original black bands that came with the original Boot Camp series :o( I like them better than the newer red swivel bands that have the included 1lb hand weights. The black one's seemed to last much longer. Oh well, at least I'll have a set!

Meals for the day:
Pre-Cardio: corn thins, cashew butter; BCAAs; Glut./tea
CARDIO
Post-Cardio: whey, WF choc syrup, stevia; 1 ser. HG’s Big Apple French Toast
M1: Oxygen’s PB Fudge bar
M2: Thomas Light Eng Muffin, EW, ff slice cheese; Blue Bunny NSA yogurt
M3: Atkins p-cake mix, EW, NSA applesauce, WF p-cake syrup
M4: EW, BSN LD, Splenda Granular

I whipped up the Hungry Girl's Big Apple French Toast yesterday and it is very good!!!! Here's the recipe. PS, I highly recommend her book of recipes but be sure to still check out the recipes on her site because not all of them are in the book and vise versa. Also, when I made it my macros came out a bit lower, which = yay! more food for less calories!:

The Big Apple French Toast Casserole

PER SERVING (one 4-inch square, about 1 cup): 204 calories, 4.25g fat, 577mg sodium, 30g carbs, 6g fiber, 8.5g sugars, 16.5g protein -- POINTS® value 4*

AHHHHHHHHHHH! Is it breakfast or dessert? This decadent morning-meal recipe is SO easy and ridiculously delicious. PLEASE make it ASAP. You'll FLIP!

Ingredients:
8 slices light bread (40 - 45 calories each with around 2g fiber per slice), cut into cubes
4 oz. fat-free cream cheese, room temperature
1 medium apple (preferably Fuji), peeled and diced
1 1/4 cups light vanilla soymilk
1 cup fat-free liquid egg substitute (like Egg Beaters Original)
2 tbsp. sugar-free pancake syrup
2 tbsp. light whipped butter or light buttery spread (like Brummel & Brown), melted
1/4 tsp. cinnamon
1 no-calorie sweetener packet (like Splenda), or more to taste
Optional: additional sugar-free pancake syrup, for dipping

Directions:
Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

Spray an 8-inch by 8-inch baking dish with nonstick spray. Place bread cubes evenly along the bottom of the dish.

Sprinkle diced apple evenly over the bread.

In a medium-large bowl, combine all other ingredients (cream cheese, soymilk, egg substitute, syrup, butter, cinnamon, and sweetener). If you like your French toast pretty sweet, add an extra packet of sweetener. Using a handheld electric mixer set to medium speed, mix until lump-free and smooth. Pour mixture over the bread and apple.

Make sure bread is soaked in the liquid mixture. If needed, toss lightly to coat.

Bake in the oven for about 45 minutes, until egg mixture is pretty firm and cooked through. (Be sure not to overcook, as bread may burn.) Let cool slightly and cut into quarters. If you like, serve with additional syrup for dipping. Dig in!

MAKES 4 SERVINGS

And here is the Oxygen Peanut Butter Bar recipe (sorry if I already posted, I don't remember):

Oxygen’s Peanut Butter Fudge Bars

Serves 4

INGREDIENTS:
120g BSN Lean Dessert chocolate protein powder
1.3oz flax meal
42g peanut butter
1/4 cup water (add more if needed)
Stevia or Splenda to taste

DIRECTIONS:

• Mix all ingredients in large bowl and stir. Add 1TB of water at a time, if needed.
• Cut 4 pieces of saran wrap or snack size plastic baggies. Spoon ~74g onto/in each piece of wrapping. Shape them once they are sealed up.
• Store the bars in the fridge or freezer. You can eat them chilled, frozen, or even right out of the bowl.

NUTRITIONAL INFO:
(per 296g total weight; 74g each piece)

214 CALS
11.4g FAT
10.8g CARBS
22g PR

And I made some "Cutting" Bars that are amazing!!!! I've used BSN Lean Dessert chocolate flavor before and this time I used Beverly International Ultimate Muscle Protein Cookie & Creams flavor which was great as well:

"Cutting" Bars
Serves 12

Combine in large (Make sure it's very large! I had to change bowls and talk about a gooey mess!) bowl:

8 scoops whey
8oz dry (not instant) oats-can grind into a flour-like mixture if want
1 package (large box) Sugar Free Fat Free Instant Pudding mix (any flavor is good, I use the flavor that will go well with my pp)
18oz unsweetened soy or almond milk
2 cups water (this is optional. I found I had to add it because my batter wasn't wet enough)

Mix until a sticky batter is formed (may take a few minutes). Use a large spoon to spread out the mixture into the bottom of a PAM-sprayed glass or metal casserole dish. I like to use a 4 quart oblong one) and spread til even. Put in the fridge or freezer overnight and cut into 12 equal bars. I then took each bar out and wrapped it individually in saran wrap and put them all in a freezer bag--takes up much less space and they're ready to grab 'n go when needed.

MACROS per bar (will differ depending on the type of pp you use):
177 Calories
3.6g Fat
20g Carbs
16.5g Protein