It Keeps On Getting Better!

Last night I had a stress breakdown. It was 7:30pm, an hour after I ate my fifth meal, I had a headache, I was hungry, I had an econ paper to research and write, and I just realized that I did not have enough time on Tuesday to do office work with Mom, get my hair done at 1pm, write and research the paper, and be done with all of this by 5:30pm when Jeff would come over. I was flipping out and was ready to clean out the pantry of freshly baked (and still warm!) Toll House Valentine's Day cookies Mom just made and eat the whole bag of baked Doritos.

I decided to eat an Amy's Tofu Scramble pocket to curb the hunger pains and help with the carb craving. Unfortunately, it didn't do the trick and I was still stressing out. I had two Toll House cookies and a Fiber One bar. I figured the Fiber One bar was sweet, carby, and still semi-healthy. I was ready to dive into my third cookie when I stopped in my tracks and asked myself, "Will you feel any better after you swallow that last bite of cookie? Will this third cookie or any other food make the stress go away?" Nope! I'll just be more stressed out and unhappy if I continue with eating my stress away.

Luckily by this time it was 9pm and I was heading to bed soon so I figured out what damage I had done and was shocked to find I only sucked down 1700 calories for the day. My carbs were much higher than the low carb number I was shooting for, but I didn't do that much damage. I then proceeded to figure out what Saturday would look like with going to Bread Co. I plugged in all my meals for the day, including Bread Co., and was happy to find that I'd be sitting around 1530 calories. Amazing! I could eat at Bread Co. and do less damage than I did eating two cookies, a Fiber One bar, and the tofu scramble! haha So then I figured out that even with my stress out fix on Monday plus Saturday's extra amount and if I stick to my lower carb plans for the rest of the week (like planned), I'll be averaging a very nice caloric amount for the whole week! Still in BF loss mode! Yay!

And speaking of BF loss...down another pound today! I'm not exactly on track with where I'd like to be in the 12 week plan, but I'm heading in the right direction and I have to work with where I am, not where I think I should be. If I sit here and worry about, "Omg, I should be at XXX weight this week and I'm not!", I'm just going to self sabotage myself and create a freaking out, may as well give up mindset. And I have done that far too many times before and I'm going to step out and prevent myself from doing it again.

And more good news, went to the spinal doc yesterday. I told her about my Siatica bothering me and she asked if I felt any numbness or tingling in my legs or feet. I said no (thank you baby Jesus!) and she was relieved to hear that. She said my options were: live with the pain (we both said no thank you to this!), take anti-inflamatories (which I've done and don't do a thing), go back to physical therapy (which has helped but not as much as the injections), or do another round of injections in a different spot. I opted for the injections again. I have an apt. set up for Feb. 23rd at 9:20am to get them.

Only problem is, I have an Econ exam that afternoon and per her orders, I cannot sit more than 30 minutes that day (plus I'm in too much pain from them to sit that long) and I have to ice it 15 min. on and 15 min. off the whole day. I have to talk to my Econ professor tomorrow to see if he'll let me take the exam prior to or after the scheduled date. He's a very nice guy so I'm thinking that he'll let me do that. Otherwise I can either (a) make sure I get done in 30 minutes (I usually cannot focus on any exam more than this amount of time anyways lol), walk around after 30 minutes, press through the 30 minutes of sitting, or reschedule my injection apt.

Rescheduling is going to be a pain if I have to resort to that because it's hard to get an injection apt. with my doc. She only does it certain days of the week at certain times and at the certain location I want to see her at. Plus, I have to have Mom go with me because I am not allowed to drive home. Why I can't, idk. I'm a little sore immediately after but worse as the day goes on.

I could also press through the 30 min. of sitting because last time I got the injections, Jeff and I had to drive back to Columbia, MO that same day. That's a 2 1/2 hour drive. We always stopped at a gas station (because I pee like every hour with the amount of water I consume lol) after an hour so I sat a full 60 minutes twice that day and I lived :o) But I'm still going to ask my prof. if I can take it a different day just so I don't have to worry about all that sitting.

Plans for today:
CARDIO: Tae Bo Core Express with the Amped bar--done!
TRAINING: OFF
MEALS: low carbing it