Relief At Last!

I've been thinking about my blog for the past few days and realizing how forgetful I am. With the end of the school semester, I was stressed out about finals and about graduating. I can happily announce that I am an official alum of the University of Missouri-Columbia! Woo hoo! I was in tears after my accounting II final, which was the determinant in my graduating or not. I really thought I blew it, which I did...blew it out of the water in a good way! The final exam was my highest test score of the semester in there! WTF? Figure that one out! My money is on all the praying my family/friends and I did. Thank you Jesus!

The day of graduation I felt like a huge void was lifted off of me. It was amazing, the feeling I was experiencing. Six years of hell and stress gone. Just like that. After walking across that stage and shaking the hands and hugging my professors, relief! So I have to get a full time job now. WHO CARES?! So many people, including my fiance, have told me, "You're going to wish you were back in school after you get a job." Really? NO! I think not. I KNOW not. Yes, a job may stress you out, but not in the way the stress of school and not knowing if I was going to pass a class or when I was going to graduate stressed me out. My whole life was on hold because of one exam or one class. The night of my Accounting II final I couldn't sleep, tossed and turned, cried. What if I didn't pass the exam? That means I couldn't find a full time job, I couldn't start planning our wedding, and I couldn't even begin to fathom when we'd move out of our parent's homes for good. It was awful.

That being said, I feel like a new me. Actually, I feel like I got the old me back. The me who loved fitness and healthy eating. The me who worked out and ate healthy because I enjoyed it, not because I was trying to keep up or achieve something. I feel SO in control of my life. That's it--MU took the control of my life away. Sure I could study my butt off, but that never guaranteed that I'd pass. Exams have always, even since Elementary school, given me a hard time. Anyways, I'm happy now--everyday! I wake up and think, life is good! I have purpose! Ya, some days things go wrong but over all, life is good! For four years while at MU I never was able to wake up thinking that. I'd wake up and dread the day, knowing I was struggling.

So on my plate right now is to find a job. Full time, part time, doesn't matter to me or Mom. I'm considering taking over Mom's job but then again, applying at Juicy Couture sounds like fun. I swore I'd never work retail again but our Juicy store is in Plaza Frontenac which is a very upscale mall. You don't see the typical mall shopper in there, nor crowds. It's quite, peaceful, and upscale. Very chic and calm. I love it! Plus, I love Juicy....ok, no, I'm obsessed with Juicy. When I redid my room last summer I had a "Juicy" theme in mind: Victorian, pink, dark chocolate brown, and elegant. And I must say, it ended up pretty Juicy! I figure my Bachelor of Science in Textile & Apparel Management degree can't hurt when applying there either. I'm not looking to become a manager--I don't want that much responsibility. Just a sales associate is fine for now...until I figure out what I really want to do.

Speaking of working, I have to get going and head to Dad's office. Catching up on some computer work today. Then home for training.

Have a good one!
xoxo
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